You are viewing jeensgrrl

Problems Never Solved.... [entries|friends|calendar]
jeensgrrl

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[Saturday
August 4th, 2007
10:33am
]
Well since I haven't been on in a long long time, let alone put up any pictures of me and the kids, i figured I should do so. So if you take a lookie under the cut you'll get to see me and everybody...and yeah we are fairly easy on the eyes...I think...LOL

Read more...Collapse )
0

new hats [Friday
August 3rd, 2007
9:23pm
]
I have completed two hats for my little girl for the Fall :)
First is just done in Caron Simply Soft, no pattern, just a cable border leading into a regular stockinette stitch hat. I don't use patterns so it came from my mind...

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket


Sunny Days hat, again no pattern, just imagination...


Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket


(top view)


Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket


Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket


I love knitting ;-)
0

Crush Calculator [Monday
December 18th, 2006
6:56pm
]
This is really cute just copy and paste the link so you can find out who your one and only is....

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/157792216
0

[Sunday
December 17th, 2006
8:45pm
]
My best friend's sister is going to have a baby girl at the end of Janusry. I get all excited so I have made her a few things so far, but I'm sure I will make more soon:) All of these are freehand and I never write patterns down so yeah:)
Baby projectsCollapse )
2

The ugliest blanket in the world... [Monday
December 11th, 2006
7:44pm
]
I am on a mission. I want to make the ugliest blanket in the world. I think i can accomplish this easily and quickly. You see...I have lots of half done knitting and crochet projects that will be great to piece together for this sole purpose. I mean i estimate the blanket will be done in early 2007. So it will have to be quick and easy. It is sort of funny too because I am going to use all types of yarn...from cheesey 1.99 skeins to 12.00 for 80 yard skeins. I can imagine it will be heavy too. And it will have to be dry cleaned because I already used a very nice silk cashmere blend in it. LMAO. I want to put it on the bed when done with it. kenny is involved in this too, as I have taught him how to knit...in fact as we speak he is knitting a sqare to be put into the blanket. I wish I knew some more people that knit or crochet because I would ask for their help...I mean if everyone made a square or something it would be done soooo much more quickly. LOL I would even supply the yarn...considering I have enough to open my own yarn shop if I wanted to. Ok back to my knitting....because we all need an ugly homemade blanket!
0

[Monday
December 11th, 2006
8:01am
]
well it is the start of a brand new day. I wish I were still sleeping. I ended up having the nicest ream about someone who I will not disclose but they are on my friends list and it isn't anyone obvious. So yeah I really didn't want to wake up. So now I'm up and Kenny had brought me breakfast in bed and left (good combo) and I decided to get on here and write this. I have to get my bum moving though because Bubba has his eye doctor appt this morning....hopefully his last one for now. I don't know I just feel like vegging out today. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. Drinking coffee and watching guilty pleasure tv would be a great way to spend my day I think...lol. Oh well back to the daily grind.
0

pictures of my beautiful self [Sunday
December 10th, 2006
9:31pm
]
hey everyone I am finally getting around to posting brand spanking new pics of me hope you enjoy talk to you all soon!!!

pictures of meCollapse )
4

heya I'm still alive [Sunday
November 26th, 2006
10:59pm
]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I tell you what...I didn't realize how long ago I posted to this thing. I have been a busy lady. Things are okay I'm with kenny still and we are still planning on getting married. The kids are all doing very well. Noel is almost 5 now and her speach has improved dramatically. Ben just turned 10 and he thinks he is 15...lol. Walter is doing well too he has been a little sick lately but other than that he is in excellent shape. I've been watching kids lately at one point it was up to 7 including my own...now it is back down to 6...surprised I didn't rip my hair out...tee hee. I'm back doing eBay. I dunno I'm knitting like a fool again...not so much crochet anymore it was getting too tough on the wrists. I'm still living at the same place. I've changed my style quite a bit...lol. I'm going to post some pics so ya'll can take a gander at the new me. But yeah okay I will talk to you all soon and I hope you all are doing well.

4

I'm back [Monday
May 22nd, 2006
6:34pm
]
So here I am I'll give those of you who don't have a myspace account the ups on whats been going on. I met this great guy named Kenny back in March, March 21 to be exact. We have gotton engaged and things are wonderful. The kids are good too. Noel ends school on Thursday, Bubba is talking and copyin everyhting that Kenny does, and Ben is well...playing a lot of video games. Walter hasn't seen the kids for about 2 and 1/2 months. He is an ass, he won't even pick up the phone to talk to the kids. Whatever. He loses out. I got a washing machine finally, for free mind you. I have been doing laundry all weekend and my arms hurt from hanging it up in my house. Ummmm...let's see what else...hmmm...I don't know it's been fairly "normal" around here for so long I don't have much to yak about. I am crocheting a little more. I'm making a poncho for the Fall for Noel, she loves ponchos. It is a turtleneck one, pink and white. I'm going to dye my hair black tonight. I am also going to get multiple piercings. Not tonight, but soon because we bought some piercing needles and some hot body jewelry to go along with it. I got it off of eBay. Speaking of which eBay suspended my fucking account. Assholes. Walter ran up my old tab with them and never paid it, so I just created another account with another debit card, too bad they found out it was me of course I've had these accounts for almost a year now.....they don't catch on too quick apparently. They are raining my bag. I want to start up a t-shirt business with Kenny too. Not sure what we are going to name it yet though. Sure we'll come up with something. We have a lot ideas for funny shirts. Like he wants one that says "Worlds Greatest Lesbian" and "Ron Jeremy Is My Dad"....yeah those kinds of t-shits. I want to put Jesus in a caddy and put the saying..."I roll with Jesus" for Ben, since he likes church so much. So yeah. Oh and I have a cell phone too so if anyone wants to text me go for it....5084418449. Ok peeps going to get going talk to you all real soon. Oh and did I mention that I weigh 198 when last year at this time I weighed 260...yeah baby...first time I've been under 200 in ten years...LOL. Bye!!!!
0

in my veins hot music ran [Monday
May 22nd, 2006
2:12pm
]
[ mood | creative ]

LOL...yeah that title has nothing to do with the post but whatev...anyway if you all really want to keep up with me check out my myspace...here...
www.myspace.com/missy_mcfussy
I update there all the time, things are going well but yeah if you want to see pics and hear rockin music and view the greatness that is my myspace page then go take a lookie...peace out peeps

3

yes I'm back never did delete this fucking thing [Sunday
April 9th, 2006
1:06pm
]
[ mood | horny ]

Well good old Alyson is back after a 2 month hiatus. I felt kind of shitty about LJ for awhile, just sick of it ya know but i'm feeling the need to start writing again and my other journal really doesn't have my whole life story either this one does, lots of reasons for me coming back and using jeensgrrl. Anyhoo....first things first...whats going on with all of you??? I've only talked one or two of you since I've been gone. It's been sort of a wild ride the last few months. I'm starting to feel like my old self again a bit though. I do have a brand spanking new bf, which is great. His name is kenny and he lives here with me, we have been together now for almost a month. Right now I'm a little peeved with him, but thats because I want to get the fuck out of the house and he isn't feeling so great, which totally isn't his fault but yeah I feel the need to get the fuck out and do something. I'm hating being hme lately, don't ask me why I just don't know. I'm thinking about moving again. I think thats my problem. Everytime I look around this shithole I see things that remind me of when Walter was around and I'd rather be stuck under a sky that is raining shit and to remember him...he is such an ass and I have decided that I hate him...yes hate him. I don't use that word to describe too many of my relationships with people, but I can use it for this one. I mean what a fucktard. Okay so anyway you now know about Kenny and how thats going, ummmm....the kids are good I guess....being there cute little annoying selves I guess. next week is my 26th birthday...whooop-did-eee-freakin-doo. I guess I'm going out because my sis is coming to watch the kids but I really don't have any set plans. So yeah...we'll see I have a feeling it's going to end up being shopping, movie, dinner, barf bag. Who knows maybe it will be a good one but who knows who knows who knows. Also I've noticed a lot of my bi-polar symptoms coming back, weird, that hasn't happened in awhile. For a long time I think I was so used to feeling one way I was numbed. I'm not numb anymore, I'm feeling again which I guess is good...sometimes. Most of the time I want the world to just fuck off but other times I'm in one of my really happy giddy manic modes and thats fun, I'd take that anyday over feeling like this. Right now I'm pissy and my period isn't helping really. I need to do something and I don't know what. Weird. Nothing to do...you think that I would be grateful...not me I seem to strive when I have a million freaking things on my plate...nothing like feeding off of stress. It's actually pretty boring not being stressed. It gives me time to stick my thumb up my ass I suppose. Joking...maybe...LOL. I havebeen knitting and such...but even that sucks a lot lately. Just not feeling it ya know. I want more...maybe now would be a good time for me to go back to school it would give me something to do other than sit here like a lazy ass. I dunno how comfy I am with that yet though although the thought is seeming pretty appealing right now considering how much I hate doing nothing. I might as well keep busy with something fairly productive, and what would be more productive than going back to school? I want to be a hairdresser in the worst way I just have to work up the energy to get the fuck out of here and just go and do it. I've been cutting my kids hair and my hair now for awhile and I'm pretty damn good at it but *sigh* you need a goddamn license to be able to go near the publics hair with sharp instruments. Stupid rules and laws...LMAO. Not like I would hurt anyone....lol...just imagine me sitting there and some dude with a pornstache is complaining how he doesn't like his new haircut and I accidentally slip with the scissors and hit his neck...whoops...LOLOLOLOLOLOL. Ok that was a little sadistic of me but yeah I think that would be a thought that would come to mind. My sleeping patterns have been a changin too...no sleep for Alyson...I might as well just stay dressed and do jumping jacks at 2 AM...LOL....I'm such a little insomniac. Oh yeah I've dropped about 20 more pounds too...thanks to the Nicole Richie school of dieting...LOL...no really I didn't go that route but I'm still not sure how the weight actually came off...just sort of went away. Probably because no one bring me fast food twice a day anymore. so my new fave sore is American Eagle...nice to be able to in there and buy what I want now instead of having to go to the plus sizes....I knew victory would be mine I just didn't realize how soon. Things are good things are bad things are normal...peace out peeps.
a song


1

[Friday
February 10th, 2006
6:09pm
]
I am deleting this journal after anither week or so and I have created a brand new one. This has been done because I am in a whole new chapter in my life and I want to start a new journal to signify that. So If you want on in the new journal I will be
missy_mcfussy
see ya there
1

[Tuesday
January 24th, 2006
7:54pm
]
hangman


This is the dream I had the other day. It's really fucked up but here it is...

I drempt that I lived across the street from a large park and that there was a tree dead center to my apartment and I live on the top floor. Anyway I went out for a very early morning walk and I saw Walter (ex-bf) and his truck. I didn't want to talk to him so I went in the house away from him. I did however watch him from my window. I watched him make a noose with the clothesline we bought to tie our Christmas tree down with. Him climbed up the tree and hung himself while watched and did nothing. I couldn't help but keep looking at him...just hanging there. I didn't call the cops...just pretended like I didn't see it. A little while later as daylight broke a jogger spotted him and called 911. I'm just watching as people come to see him...just hanging there. The emergency peeps never came, wouldn't have mattered anyway considering I was pretty sure he was dead, probably died not long after jumping down from the tree. Now that there were more people crowding around him I felt like I should go too and I never said a word I just watched. I did remember feeling scared because I could have saved him, but I didn't want to.

Thats where it ends...I woke up to my alarm after that.
2

[Friday
January 20th, 2006
11:32am
]
Well I entered Bubba into the Regis and Kelly beautiful baby contest..tee hee. I'm pretty sure nothing will come of it, but you never know he won't win if I don't enter him. Everyone says hes cute...maybe he'll be cute enough to win;) Even if he doesn't I would be so happy just to see him on the show if they show him. Anyway here is the picture I submitted
Image hosting by Photobucket
he was blowing a kiss.
3

[Wednesday
January 18th, 2006
10:43am
]
Thanks for the nudge girl_with_purse I keep meaning to update but yeah well thats been hard. Ok so I'll update now, lol.
Having 4 kids around is hard work...way harder than just 3. My house looks like it ought to be condemned by the city, well maybe not that bad, but its pretty awful and it doesn't meet my standards at all...it will get done...one day. Everyone is adjusting well, Tommy is moving in and all is pretty tame right now. I called Walter to see if he'd come and finally get all his shit out of here by tomorrow, if he doesn't come guess where its going? Yup thats right the trash.hes still got so much crap here its pathetic and I warned him that I would do this. Oh well no biggie it will bring me joy and delight to put it all in trash bags and throw it out:) I applied for cash assistance through welfare so I can pay my rent...ughhhh...I got approved but unfortunately the woman at welfare forgot to have me sign a paperso instead of getting my money today I have to wait until friday or saturday. I kind of need it now but I guess it will be okay for then...just annoying. So now I have to go down there at 12:30 to sign the paper...growl...I had to call dad for a ride, normally I would just take the bus but the baby is sleeping and Noel comes home for 12:30 so yeah dad was the way to go on this one. The welfare lady really got me sort of stressed out when she called so I burnt my bagel I was frying up so now I'm starving too....nice. Tommy came home from work a little while ago because it was slow but he only stayed home for about an hour and he went to his friends house which is fine I need my personal time....thats what I like he goes out but doesn't take advantage of it. I need my time and he needs his so it works out good ya know. Oh I started making a new scarf too...just stupid red heart, but oh well. I haven't made a scarf in a long time, lol, boring and repetitive, lol. Thats okay its in my fave color a nice apple green. Ben has been mouthy lately...little pain in the butt...I don't know why hes been so fresh but he'll stop eventually I guess. I'm also waiting for my mail to come....not like its going to be anything uplifting but whatever I like mail. Speaking of which I got a billyesterday, well not a bill for me, but for Walter. It was the ever dreaded gas bill...lol. I don't have to pay it this time around because it is still under his name but the bill for next month will be different I have to pay it and I don't want another 350.00 bill...that is soooo nuts just to heat my home....fucking loonies at the gas company. Whatever I'll just keep the thermostat as low as possible for as long as possible to keep the bill down. Ok I can't think of anything else right now so I need to go find something to eat before I start bouncing of the walls from hunger, lol.
4

[Saturday
January 7th, 2006
10:36am
]
Well it finally happened...I got rid of Wally...totally gone now...ahhhhhhhh. You know when they say "when one dorr closes another door opens?"? it's true. I've told a few of you that I have a son that lives with his dad...I hadn't seen him since he was 18 mo old. He will be six in April...and I finally got to see him...he slept over with his dad...more on that later...last night. He got so big....here is his pic
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
I'm so excited...tommy had a talk with him about me and he knows I'm his mom....he called me mommy you know...he says he loves me and I got tons of hugs and kisses...he is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I cried like a baby because I feel like I missed out on so much with him, but really this is a beginning and I should just go about all this from here on in and not drag the past back in. Tommy wants me back, he says he loves me, but since I am having such shitty trust issues right now I want to move sort of slow, well I don't want to move slow, but my head is telling me to, lol. He is really trying to impress me though, lol. He called me around 12 yesterday and asked me if I was hungry so he bought me lunch and sat and ate with me....he even shared his lunch with little Walter. Noel likes him too...she let him pick her up last night....now thats amazing from the girl who won't let anyone but me pick her up..well maybe she would let auntie...but certainly not anyone else...lol. Tommy really likes the kids...this is a good thing thats starting to happen I think. It seems so normal with Zack here and the peace I'm feeling with myself is som,ething I haven't felt in years. I thuink this is going to complete me. Between us we have a grand total of 5 kids because Tommy has a daughter with his ex...shes 2 her name is Abigail. Anyway...more later....
9

[Sunday
January 1st, 2006
5:15pm
]
[ mood | weird ]

Ok now I'm really fucking confused...I don't know what to do and I don't want to sound pathetic...but I need advice. I trust you guys...lol...I've talked to most of you for awhile....anyhooo...
I had Noels birthday party today and I was in a great mood, as much as they get on my nerves sometimes my family really does brighten my day and they have been extremely supportive of me during all the crap I've been through over the past couple of weeks. After they left Walter came over to see Noel and bring her her present. I was soooooo pissed...livid actually. He came in the house with this awful attitude like I did something offensive to him...which as far as I know I didn't. In fact I've been pretty level headed and not so angry or sad. So we argued for a bit, I was really upset by this time and I needed a hug so I asked for one...even though I'm not much of a lovey dovey physical affectionate person I do NEED a hug from time to time, and not just from the kids. I got my hug but then something weird happened, Walter told me that he hasn't been happy where he is...this from a man who has been putting on a good act if this is how he really feels. He says he misses me and he still loves me, which I have to admit that i still love him too, but on the flip side I don't want to be treated like garbage ever again. You can't help who you love sometimes. He wants me to gather my thoughts and for me to let him know whether or not we should try to work it out and if he should move back in. I don't know what to think. I have been having a lot of fun by myself, I feel much more motivated and less depressed. I like the feeling that I can have who I want over here any time I want and just have a good time without worrying if hes going to like it or not. I like being by myself, but I do miss him in certain ways. I don't want to be a slave to him forever. If I decide to get back with him a lot of things will have to change and he will have to be willing to let them change, if not I can't do it. He can't lie to me either I mean he shouldn't hide his true feelings and or intentions from me and expect our relationship to work. Emotionally I can't afford to let him in and have him crush me and make me feel like shit...I just can't. i've been dealing with this crap way to long and i have been willing to deal with it for that long, bu now that i have a taste of life without him I feel like its better. I've also been cut off from a lot of my friends because of him...a lot of my friends are guys...i just tend to get along much better with men...but if I'm with him i would have to stop feeling like that and go back to before. Its not fair that hes making me make this decision either, he the one that left...didn't he already make the decision for me? I didn't have a say then and I'm almost certain that i won't have a say in the future. I just don't know what to do...should I stay with the familiar or branch out on my own. Either way i don't know how happy I'll be...i can't judge my future on how everything has been for the past wek and a half. I just don't know what to do anymore I'm confused and hurt and it feels like shit worse than him leaving. I just want this to be finalized but I guess I have to "gather" my thoughts. I guess i also can't have someone else make the decision for me, I'm a grown up and I have to do the right thing. i just don't know what the right thing would be...its all a grey area in which I might not like it either way. I just don't want to be down and all depressed and stressed out about it. My thoughts aren't even all back right now anyway. I haven't been myself lately anyway. I keep forgetting things and I'm absent minded and clumsy...i mean WTF...why is that? Ok I'll stop with all of this and you can give me your opinions...I need opinions...I need help in deciding what to do. Eventually I will have to make the decision for myself, I just don't know.

3

[Sunday
January 1st, 2006
8:15am
]
Well happy new years. It is a time for new beginnings!!! I'm glad for a lot of things this year, but mainly that I have grown up enough to know the differnce between someone who cares about me and someone who pretends. I'm also glad that my patience level has gone up and that I'm trying to quit smoking...again, lol. I'm glad I lost 45 pounds last year....but I will be hayy to try again this year for another 25. I'm happy to have a safe home, food, money and everything I need for my family and I to live a comfortable life in our little corner of the world...some don't have those things. I'll be grateful to watch another year go by in my childrens lives...Noel is 4 today, Ben will be 10, and Walter will be 2. The time flies when your having fun, but I am looking foward to this year...the year of new beginnings for me and for many.
Happy Birthday Noel!!!
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
2

Save the Drama for your mama.... [Monday
December 26th, 2005
12:03pm
]
Ok so heres the deal. i saw Wally on Saturday so he could take Noel to his moms house. We talked....he was seeing someone else. I knew it...but he lied at first until I told him that it wouldn't matter if he told me the truth because we weren't getting back together. So he told me...it was sort of pathetic because I know the girl...not well but I met her when I went to dinner with him one night, she seems nice. I told him that if he was happy then he should not worry about me...god I was being selfless, lol. I'm mad that he lied to me though...its like you know someone for 5 years and you think you know them...I guess not. He told me that he would take care of therent for me until I can do it on my own and that I will let him see the kids whenever he wants. He can even come over here and spend time with them I really don't care...I am so nice. I also told him that if he doesn't pay the rent and get everything I need for the kid I'd nail him for child support ...hard. I'm not going to play any games with him you know. If he wanted to leave so bad then hes going to at least do what I need him to do for the kids. Whatever its just time to move on in fact its probably been time to move on for awhile now. I have to get myself back to where I was before I met him and have fun again. its time to take care of myself...although thats kind of hard, lol. I have been lonely the past couple of days even though my sister stayed with me overnight on christmas eve. I'm still kind of lonely...I probably will be that way for a little while. I'm trying to go through everything and get rid of it so I don't have to be remined of all the bullshit that I've been about for the past 5 years you know. I'll write more later..right now I'm starving...lol...time to chow:)
5

[Friday
December 23rd, 2005
8:55am
]
well myspace is still down...I am so addicted to that site. so I figured I would come and update while I'm waiting. I can't beleive the crochet community closed...how shitty. Oh well not much I can do about it...although maybe I'll atart my own, lol. Its almost Christmas....I hope everyone is done their shopping...no one deserves to brave crowds on Christmas Eve. I am going to my neighbors house for Christmas Eve. She really wants me to go and I'm not going to Wally's moms house so I might as well. I still haven't heard anything from him. I have to call him today though because I need diapers and such and I have no money right now:(. I have to figure out a way to pay my rent too...but it will come to me, I'm not trying to think about that much until after Christmas. I don't need anymore stress over that too on top of the holidays.
2

[Thursday
December 22nd, 2005
7:11pm
]
[ mood | refreshed ]

Well he lied about the phone...he called me after work and I asked him why he had a new number...he goes on to say that it is the same phone number and I'm just crazy. I say "well why is it showing up a different number on the caller id?" Oh yeah I didn't want to tell you but I did change it..WTF. Why would he lie to me about something so simple. So I asked why he changed it and he said "because he felt like it, no real reason" For some reason after he said that I smelled bullshit so bad it was stinging my nose. So I was angry and I just ignored him. About an hour after him coming home he told me he was leaving because he didn't feel welcome...bah...good whatever. In the meantime while hes getting ready to leave the UPS man come to the door and braings me a package. I know the guy so I started talking to him for a about a minute. By the time the UPS guy left Wally snuck out and left without even saying goodbye...ass. I don't care that he didn't say bye to me, but he could have said something to the kids..the dick. Then when I opened the package from UPS I discovered it was Wally's Christmas present...not anymore...now I have a cute little bonsai tree to call my very own, lol. Oh and he took his clothes too and his undies, lol...I checked so I would know if he was coming home or not, lol. I guess hes not at least not for awhile and then its going to be debateable whether I let him back in since he doesn't have the keys...LMAO. As you can probably tell I'm not upset at all about this in fact it feels good really. I don't have to worry about him anymore and his stupidity...Free free at last. So yeah the going away party starts at 9...BYOB...lol...just kidding.

5

[Thursday
December 22nd, 2005
11:53am
]
[ mood | crappy ]

Yeah shit has now hit the fan over here. The asshole changed his cell number on me...i think thats why he left for work early last night..like almost 2 hours early. He hasn't called me today...oh well no big loss, but you would think since he know this shit is in the gutter he would at least do something to mend it. Whatever i can do better anyhow. I don't need all this stress on top of the stress I already have. I notice it is affecting my appetite and sleep though, which sucks. I'm not hungry..but I am its weird and sleep is just about non existant...gee just what I wanted for christmas...stress and a asshole bf...thanks santa...grumble.

7

[Tuesday
December 20th, 2005
11:11am
]
bon_bebe3 happy belated b-day...sorry I missed it by a couple of days. hope it was good, call me soon!
0

[Friday
December 16th, 2005
12:00pm
]
I fixed the old vaccum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wally said he had looked at it and there wan't anything else he could do....he didn't look at it closely enough, the hoses were all clogged up damn it, so I uncloggd them and now it works fine. I swear he has no brain. I cancelled my order for the new one. I am so glad I looked at it, "Nothing gets done right if you don't do it yourself" Oh and is anyone having trouble with their gmail accounts? When i go to my account page it just says "loading" and never loads.
2

[Wednesday
December 14th, 2005
6:58pm
]
It would be very nice if walter would make up his mind on how he would like me to put him to bed. Sometimes he likes rocking together and a song, other times just put him down and leave him, then again sometimes (like tonight) he can't make up his mind, so for an hour I've had a cranky baby that doesn't know what to do with himself. I finally got him to bed...I think 7 PM is a great bedtime, 6 is early, but he does like to go to bed then though sometimes. I also hope he wakes up bright and early tomorrow because I have some things to do with my parents, they are coming to get me at around 8AM or so. I;m lucky if I'm dressed by then on a typical day. I am wondering when Noel's eyeglasses are going to be here...they said 4-6 weeks, because I'm on state insurance, so I'm hoping by next week. For her birthday would be nice, I can't beleive she is going to be four on January 1st. I'm am glad though, She doesn't throw many temper tantrums anymore and she is better at communicating her needs although she still doesn't have the speech that she should. Speech therapy finally started for her though last week and I notice that she is trying to say more and a few things are a little clearer than before. Today was soooooooooo cold, 20 degrees was the high and right now it is only 19.....brrrrrrrrr. I really hate the cold. I would love to move to a place that offered warm weather all year round without it being too hot. I would just like to wear jeans and shortsleeves all the time without a need for a jacket. Only 11 more days until Christmas, and only 10 more days until I get to see what Wally's mom and dad got me:D Usually they buy my some really crappy gift, but they do give out lots of cash too...which is nice. And I'll even go out on the limb and say that the gifts they give aren't really crappy, just very practical, or corny. For example I would not be surprised to see a Chia Pet or the clapper, or a set of dishes under the tree.
2

Fucking vaccum cleaner I hate you [Tuesday
December 13th, 2005
10:19pm
]
Ok I just had to order another vaccum. I bought my last one in March and the damn thing already shit the bed, well it shit the bed about 4 months ago now..I've just been in denial and swweping my area rugs clean. I will never buy a bagless vac ever agian, not only have I had problem with mine, but my sister and my father have also had problems with them. Mine actually covers the floor with dirt, even though I empty the freaking thing after I use it all the time. I tried it the other day thinking that by some odd miracle it would work and I actually had to bang my rug out outside because it was so covered with dirt from the vaccum that you couldn't see the rug. Another 160.00 down the fraking drain. Tomorrow is gracery day...yay!!! I am going to buy some bacon for BLTs:) I haven't had those in a long time, I also want to make clam chowder this month sometime and some potato soup. Maybe I'll nmake a lasagna too. I'm getting hungry just thinking about it. I have to be careful though...the kids are going to be home for like 2 weeks out of the next month so I need to buy things that wil go a long way. I usually do my grocery shopping on a monthly basis now, I just go to the supermarket to pick up fruit and the basics every week. I do this basically because I can't stand food shopping anymore. Its fun to go and get all my yummies, but if I go every week I end up spending a fortune on crap I don't need. Not to mention the place I go I have to bag up all my groceries. Yes the food is way cheap, but I hate bagging it all. My cold seems to be coming to an end, I stil fell a little shitty, but not so bad. i think I just need some extra rest, which has been hard for me to get with a stuffy runny nose. I did sleep to 7:40 this morning though, lol. I usually get up between 6-6:30 to get the kids ready for school...ooops...my dad comes at 7:50 to get bring them. neddless to say it was a major rush, I'm just happy they eat breakfast at school, all they had to do was get dressed. I still had to wake the 3 year old beast up though, which usually takes about 10 minutes all in itself, that girl could sleep longer than me. She must have sensed the rush though because she got up and got dressed with minimum hassle. Of course Ben was awake, did he bother to get me up at quarter past when he knew what time it was...nooooooooo....ughhhhh. Ok I'm going I want to go to bed...I probably won't right away, but who knows.
8

Pictures [Monday
December 12th, 2005
8:39pm
]
Here are some pictures....
edit: please don't ask me why my picture of the Christmas tree is upside down..I just don't know
come take a peekCollapse )
1

[Saturday
December 10th, 2005
9:41pm
]
Ok I started the package swap community....
happy_mail
Please join if you want to...I need members:)
0

[Saturday
December 10th, 2005
7:15pm
]
Well I'm not tired anymore, but I never did get to take my nap...bah. I think I'm coming down with another cold...I'll tell you, it's been nothing but colds for me for like the past month and a half. I'm thinking about getting some of that airbourne stuff to see if it works. I know zicam didn't do shit for me last year, so I won't even bother spending on that again. I am thinking about starting a community where people can put up wishlist and do package swaps. I belong to a few of those communities and they are a lot of fun. If I do that it will be tonight or tomorrow, I'll let you guys know when i put it up so you can check it out. My Christmas shopping is almost complete!!! All I need know are stocking stuffers...YAY! Ok well I think I am going to go and start this community now:) I might need a co-mod so after you get to check it out and if your interested let me know!
1

[Saturday
December 10th, 2005
2:05pm
]
I am so tired right now. I t has been such a lazy day. I am trying to get my coupons organized with the sales at the supermarket and I could feel my eyes closing on me. I guess I'm going to have to do that when i'm less tried, considering it involves scissors and thinking. Coffee might do the trick, but I already had a few cups and I don't need anymore. Ok I think I'm going for a nap.
0

Recipes [Friday
December 9th, 2005
6:26pm
]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I am going to post some recipes that I make a lot, might be good for the holidays. I made jello tonight and it inspired me to share...there is always room for jello!

Jello Surprise (sounds like school lunch special but it is good I promise , and it is pretty much my own recipe)

1 package of jello same flavor of the yogurt
2 6-8 oz containers of yogurt, light works just fine
1 can of crushed pineapple
1/2 cup of boiling water

Pour the package of jello into a medium sized bowl, pour the boiling water on in and disolve the jello powder. After the jello is disolved add the crushed pineapple with the juice. Out it in the fridge for about 30 minute or just until the jello is part way set, then add the yogurt and fold it in. It doesn't have to be all mixed up really well, in fact it is better if it you don't mix it up really well. Put it in the fridge for another 2 hours or so and your good to go.

Tangy Chicken (so yummy)

6-8 pieces of chichen (preferably thighs with the bone in or drumsticks)
2 medium onions, chopped large
2 cloves of garlic, chopped
1 tablespoon butter or margerine...cooking spray is okay too

Sauce:
1/2 cup of ketchup
1/4-1/2 cup of mustard
1/8 cup balsamic or red wine vinegar
1/8 cup of worcestershire sauce
sugar to taste ( I usually use about 1/8th of a cup)

Melt your butter or margerine in the saucepan and sautee your onions and garlic until soft. Remove them from the pan. Now just put your chicken in while the pan is still hot and brown both sides. Once the browning is done pour your onions back in and the sauce needs to go in too. Put a cover on it and reduce the heat to medium if you haven't done so already. Let it sit for 15 minutes and then go on and turn your chicken over, keep doing this every 15 minutes until the chicken is done, or about 45 minutes. By the time it is done the chicken should be falling off the bone.

Ambroisa

1 can of manderin oranges, drained halfway if possible..or two small cans)
1 can crushed pineapple (drain it halfway)
1/2 of a bag of sweetened flake coconut or more if you like
1 bag of mini marshmellows
1 container of sour cream...not the huge containers they sell, just the normal size ones

mix it all up cover and throw it in the fridge over night or for about 6-8 hours and it is done

I hope someone tries these. They are either my recipe or ones my mom used to make, I do modify them a little bit though.

4

[Friday
December 9th, 2005
10:15am
]
I am finally charging the batteries in my camera so I can take some pictures to put up. It has been awhile since I've put any up. Our snoe emergency turned out to be nothing, we got about an inch and now it is raining. Thats what happens when you live along the coast, most of the time we get nothing, then other time we get smacked with snow. I'd just rather have nothing to be totally honest...I hate snow:)
Noel has the day off today, usually twice a month they have Fridays off. She is painting pictures for my mom and dad for Christmas, it is so cute, she also discovered that if she mixes red and white itmakes pink, whcich she thinks is fabulous,lol. The baby went down for a nap, which is nice, I have to clean up the pine needles from our amazing shedding tree. I know what I am going to do with my Christmas money too. I want to buy some of those vaccum seal bags for my 40 or so blankets we have in the house...don't ask me why I have so many, this way I can store them neatly and more compact. I also want to buy some plastic totes to get the clutter out...compared to some people my house is Martha Stewart clean, but to me it is a pig sty. Then I want to maybe get a couple more pairs of jeans and tops and a haircut. If I have anything left it is going toward bills, not a fun thing to do with my money, but hey I got to start somewhere. We are always behind with bills, and I want to start getting them paid down. I may wait on the gas bill though because I am eligible for heating assistance and I want to see how much they will give before I start paying. I think they have been giving about 600.00 for the winter...sounds good to me, it will pay most of my bill. I also heard they have an electricity assistance program too...I'm going to ask when I go to my appointment. Ok I have to go and get a few things done talk to you guys later!
0

Voice Post [Thursday
December 8th, 2005
11:22pm
]
VoicePost
486K 2:22
(no transcription available)
2

5 years ago [Tuesday
December 6th, 2005
8:34pm
]
I just love stealing things tonight...so here is goes

How old were you?
20

What grade were you in?
stupid like always

Where did you go to school?
that was too long ago now

Where did you work?
Independent Fasteners

Where did you live?
359 Coggeshall St New Bedford MA

Where did you hang out?
Work...how sad

How was your hair style?
long and pony taily

Did you wear braces?
n0

Did you wear glasses?
no

Who was your best friend?
I didn't have one at the time

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
had a few which one would you like to know about?

Who was your celebrity crush?
never have those

Who was your regular-person crush?
the guy that lived one apartment over from me

How many tattoos did you have?
one...stupid circle

What was your favorite band?
Citizen King

What was your biggest fear?
I'd be homeless if I missed a paycheck

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?
many

Had you gotten drunk or high yet?
oh hell yes

Had you driven yet?
nope...still haven't

Which of your pets were still alive?
none

Did you know the person who posted this right before you?
yeppers

Now fill this out, post the results, to see how much things have changed since then.

Present Day...

How old are you?
25

What grade are you in?
I'm not.

Where do you work?
I take care of my kids all day

Where do you live?
104 South St New Bedford MA

Where do you hang out now?
Weeth seester or at Mia's house

What is your hair like now?
same as it always was

Who's your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Wally - Mart

How many piercings do you have?
4

How many tattoos do you have?
one...fucking circle

What is your favorite band?
System of a down

What is your biggest fear?
that I'll be stuck with the most annoying man ever for the rest of my life

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?
even more than before

Have you gotten drunk or high yet?
even more than before

Have you driven yet?
no damn it

Which of your pets are still alive?
none, apparently I can barely keep a houseplant
5

[Tuesday
December 6th, 2005
8:25pm
]


What Will jeensgrrl Get ?
Xmas pressie predictor
Big wooly jumper knitted by pinktarte
Pair of Socks from _melly
Bottle of Whiskey from ells_icons
Cd from queenof911
Something Cuddly from fatgrl
Something Intoxicating from bon_bebe3
Something Silly from lyricaltone
Something Funny from y_not_teach
Lump of coal from mnfiddledragon
Something Pretty from sleepygrrl
Something Shiny from snow_sprite
Something Naughty from buy_trade
Something Smelly from izzy21484
Something Breakable from tiarra
Something Useful from girl_with_purse
Something not useful from sleepygrrl
The Black and Decker Tool Kit from buy_trade
Livejournal account from tiarra
The Make-up Bag from queenof911
Stack of DVDs from mnfiddledragon
Something Geeky from lyricaltone

Username:

Made by _imran_ and beyond_bananas.
Hosted at Memeland


6

[Sunday
December 4th, 2005
10:50pm
]
tis the season for random pet deaths. Our hermit crab diddly-doo died this week and it looks as though our black oscar fish is going to bite the dust any minute. Our bigger stronger oscar has finally started to peck at him and he is barely swimming upside down. We noticed last night after Walter changed the water in the tank. The water is already green again....he must be doing something wrong.
Vh-1 needs to stop making additive television too. I have been watching all day. It was snowy and I had nothing else to do.
I finished up my Christmas shopping. I also got myself some presents...tee hee. I got some Berroco and Debbie Bliss. I am thinking about getting rid of my red heart stash...not a big fan of the stuff. I got most of it free from my friends father's thrift store. Oh well I have to go it's almost my bedtime. I may have pictures tomorrow.
I almost wrote pisstures..yeah.
1

[Friday
December 2nd, 2005
8:09pm
]
[ mood | infuriated ]

What a fucking night. Well afternoon. Anyway I went to go pay my rent today, stuck my two mnthly checks in an envelope along with 220.00. I get a phone call about an hour later from the landlords daughter stating that there wasn't any cash in the envelope. I know I put the cash in the envelope and Walter saw me do it, so I double checked my purse anyway, of course it wasn't there because I had put it in the envelope, but I just wanted to be more than 100% sure. I called the actual landlord about it and she accused me of taking the money, which by the way I don't need right now anyhow. I told her that it was in the envelope and that I am not going to pay her because I don't know if her daughter took it. She gave me this huge lecture on how her kids would never do that blah blah blah. Wel I am confident that she did it, but because no one is ever there to give me a fucking rent receipt and we've never had a problem in the past 8 or so months I don't have any proof, but they don't have any proof that i didn't pay either. So Monday I'm calling a lawyer and the landlord tenat assoc. to cover my ass. Oh and did I mention that they are only the landlords for another week? I think they thought I was dumb and would just pay them over again. Hell no, freaking theives. I also asked someone that I know is a landlord and I got told there isn't anything that they can do about it because they can't prove that I didn't pay them. So they can basically go screw themselves. So yeah that was my night.

4

[Wednesday
November 30th, 2005
8:02pm
]
[ mood | crazy ]

I just came back from doing a little bit of shopping. I got two pairs of jeans and 3 tops and a new blazer. I have to say I went to Old Navy and they had nothing at all that I even remotely liked, but when I went to Penneys they had all sorts of great stuff and on sale too and it fits me better. I got the two pairs of jeans for 25.00 ea regularly they were 44.00, I bought three long sleeve tees for 9 $ ea, normally 18.99 ea, and my blazer originally was 60.99 and I got that for 30.00. All in all it was a great shopping experience and I will go there now instead of ld Navy. I have been going to Old Navy now for way too long and kind of settled into the poor fit. The jeans I got tonight are just right, they are so comfy its almost like I'm wearing PJs, lol. This weekend I am going out with girl_with_purse to finish up my X-Mas shopping and maybe if I have a little left I might get some yarn and the ambition to knit myself a purse:) I want wool so I can felt it and I think I may just get it from knit picks, cheap nice wool and free shipping over 30.00 can't beat it:) I still need my haircut, I am beginning to look sort of like an English Sheepdog. i am waiting for Wally to get back from Wal-Mart so I can take a shower, I only have the dollar store shampoo right now and it makes my hair feel like a grease pit, so I will wait patiently for my Dove shampoo.
Noel needs glasses. I took her to the eye doctor yesterday and she has an astigmatism and a lazy eye. It took two people to hold her down and one to put the drops in her eyes so they could dialte her pupils, poor thing was scared shit, I don't blame her. She picked out a really cute pair of wire rim glasses. I was afraid she might pick Sally Jesse Raphel glasses, but they didn't have any in her size. I was also afrid that if they had yellow glasses she might have picked them because she said she wanted yellow ones on the way there. The ones she is getting make her look so much like a bookworm...it is sooooooo cute.
Little Walter has not taken a bottle fro nap or for bed for two days *doing a happy dance*. At first I just thought it was because he was sick with a cold, but today he seems to be feeling much better and he still wouldn't take it. I'm glad I didn't have to wean him I hate taking them off the bottle if they aren't ready, although the only one I ever had a problem with was Ben, he was almost 2 before he got off the bottle, and he wasn't really ready to get rid of it...but I certainly was.
I have also started playing stupid computer slots...what a freaking waste of time, but I notice when I am pissed of it helps me too relax...I play them a lot.
Oh and just to let everyone know I am still reading journals even though I may not be commenting a whole lot. I just haven't been in the livejournal state of mind lately. I'm more spaced out than ever. I want to talk to a doctor about my lack of attention span. It has been getting worse, like a lot worse. I can't even write a grocery list anymore without thinking about something else. I can't even watch a tv show, never mind a movie. Oh gawds now I'm ADHD too...betcha any amount of money:(
Ok I'd better go, I want to find a pattern for a felted knit purse:)

3

[Wednesday
November 23rd, 2005
8:09pm
]
First and foremost have a happy and safe Thankgiving tomorrow. I will be bored to death at my parents house for four hours and W@alter might not even come...work ya know...well that wouldn't be such a loss. I can't stand him anymore and I want to leave, at least I want to leave right now. He drives me up a wall with all his stupid bullshit. Bah.
The kids are doing good I gave Noel a new haircut tonight and she is excited about tomorrow. Ben is acting up and I'd like to have a remote control for him with a large mute button. The baby is well acting like a baby. Although the child has become increasingly more rough...he pulls hair...bites...pinches when he thinks your looking and will cry if you do not let him do those things. The way I figure it, Noel should be bald by the time New Years rolls around. Bah.
OOOOOhhhhh one good thing did happen today I found a cute pair of linen pantys today at the Salvation Army...they still had tags and they are my size, so I now have a nice pair of pants to wear tomorrow.
Maybe I'll start a food fight tomorrow too. I would love to slingshot some mashed potatoes onto my father's forehead...LOL. I won't though I'll be nice and keep the peace, I want to be invited back next year so I don't have to cook:D
Ok peeps talk to yall later.....
2

update and indecision [Friday
November 18th, 2005
12:54pm
]
I haven't updated in awhile so I figured I would do it now since I have a couple of minutes.

We've all been sick for the past 3 days or so. It hasn't been pretty, I have so much landry to do its not funny and I still don't feel 100% right. The kids are back to their old selves though, figures. I haven't been doing a whole lot besides that. I did find out that my best friend is having a baby girl, so I've been cotemplating a blanket to make her. I'm also starting to think about the kids Christmas presents. I am a procrastinator.....I have a few things, but not enough yet. I still haven't got my haircut...but thats okay maybe next week. I have a feeling I will be walking to the store in a little while :/ I need cleaning stuff and yarn, well I don't need the yarn I want the yarn so I probably won't get any yarn, lol. I probably won't walk though, it is cold out today and I'm not in the mood to take my monsters out. The thought is just exhausting. I don't know I'm undecided. I could wait for Waldo to bring me, but I don't want to go to the store with him because he'll pick out 8 other gazillion things we don't need to buy. I dunno. Maybe I should get my haircut tonight. Ughhhh I hate being so undecided. I guess I'll figure it out during the course of the day. Well whatever day there is left. I know it's 1 o'clock but its all downhill from here, before I know it it will be 8 and the kids will be in bed and I'll be doing something useless like always. After the kids go to bed I never do anything that needs to get done, I figure there is no point. Oh well I guess I better go before Bubba rips all the hair from Noel's head in a rage.
5

Extreme Makeover [Sunday
November 6th, 2005
10:07pm
]
[ mood | crappy ]

I need a total overhaul....I look like a complete piece of crap...and thats putting it nicely. I wear jeans, which is fine, usually old white tee shirts and these sneakers that look like they went through a nuclear explosion. Oh and we wouldn't want to forget about my yellow Corona hoodie which I wear...more often than I should. I need a haircut, it's over grown, like weeds. I have more bruises than whoever because the baby keeps pinching and biting me...I wish I knew why he bites. I need a new pocketbucket, preferably a red one, why red...I dunno. And makeup is just a ridiculous notion thought of by me only in my dreams. I just feel like I don't have any time to look human anymore...I in fact look like I have crawled out of a nearby BFI dumpster. I need help......bad. I aws thinking of hitting the nearest Salvation Army to see if I could find anything good for myself since I broker than broke. Sorry I am ranting and I am sure that everyone feels like this once in awhile I just have been feeling this way for a long time and now I have to start doing something about it.

2

[Friday
November 4th, 2005
11:19pm
]
[ mood | giggly ]

I just realized that they have a new thing at the top of the page called my LJ...OMFG...you can customize Frank....I have Baad Frank...check it out, it's too funny.

1

Freecycle [Friday
November 4th, 2005
11:12pm
]
[ mood | creative ]

Ok a while back I bought a sewing machine, I actually gave the thing away, it worked great but I didn't really have any time to sew anymore...it went to my neighbor, which was great because if I did want to sew she would let me borrow it. Well I've decided to start sewing again and I wanted a different machine. I posted on freecycles to see if I could get one from there considering I'm fairly broke. I got an Adler 152 from 1952, lol. This thing is amazing...it is all metal and works like a dream...oh and I looked it up on ebay and you can see what it looks like here
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=8221518091&category=3118
Oh and remember I got this absolutely free...check out how far the bids went up....
this is the best thing I have ever gotton from freecycles, lol

0

[Sunday
October 30th, 2005
6:31pm
]
Hey everyone! I haven't been on much lately. I have been busy again. I started selling my crochet hats on eBay....and the response is overwhelming to say the least. I have to make 24 hats by the end of November, which won't be too bad, but I will be a busy girl, lol. Its funny I got orders off of my auctions, one person would buy a teddy bear hat and then ask for 3 more, and it went on like that all last week, lol. It is good I get some extra cash coming in for Christmas:) Speaking of Christmas...ohhhhhhh.... it is coming and that is so crazy to me, it doesn't even feel like Fall to me even though it snowed last night...ughhhhh....snow. Anyway in other news everyone is doing all right, we're all a little bored though, Wally is working a lot of hours and we really haven't gone out anywhere. We've been homebodies I guess. Well I talk to you all later:)
Alyson
6

[Wednesday
October 19th, 2005
6:57pm
]
[ mood | blank ]

I had a great conversation with bon_bebe3 last night. I haven't been on the phone that long in a while, but it was fun:) I went to bed at 1:30 and got up at 6...ugghhh...I was a little sleepy but I got over it after a pot of coffee, lol. Today I was sort of lazing around the house, I didn't even vaccum. I did however make supper...meatloaf and a baked potato. What an interesting life I lead, lol.
Yesterday my keyboard broke down on me:( The space bar wouldn't work...so yeah. i posted on freecycles that I needed a new keyboard and I got two! One lady knew was getting one, but gave me a new in box one...just in case. That was really cool because I actually needed something and got it...imagine that:) It must have been karma from when I left the grocery bag in the cart for someone else to use. Around here where I shop you actually have to pay for the bags and I had one left over, instead of keeping it I left it in the cart for someone else. Oh karma.
Hmmmmm.....not much else going on except I still haven't gotton my Paypal debit card. I should have gotton it two days ago at the latest...it is still not in my possesion. I found out that Paypal fucked up my address and has to send me a whole new card. I bitched about it and tried to get it shipped here by Priority mail, but nothing doing because they only ship one way. So I suffer for thier fuckup...nice.
Oh and one more thing before I forget. there is a remote possibility that hurricaine Wilma might strike Massachusetts sometime next week. Can you say disaster planning. If I know it's coming I am going to get the fuck out of dogde before something bad happens. The weather man said that if it does strike it will probably be a catagory 3 hurricaine...thanks but no thanks. Rather not. Maybe in another lifetime.So yeah as it gets closer or father away I'll update....lets hope it goes out to sea where it can't do as much damage.

0

[Wednesday
October 19th, 2005
4:45pm
]
Poll #594033 If you want a small gift and Christmas card letta me know

If you want a small gift and a Christmas card from me send me you address only I can see it.

0

[Monday
October 17th, 2005
2:26pm
]
http://tinyurl.com/ex5cv
Come see the talking ALF doll from 1986...he is on eBay now!
0

[Monday
October 17th, 2005
11:08am
]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Ok well I still haven't had a ciggarette. I've noticed keeping busy helps. I made cookies, chicken soup, and brownies yesterday and started knitting a baby hat for my friends new baby when he or she comes. I also went grocery shopping and sat outside with my neighbor Candi, she smokes, that was a little tough, but no big deal. Her husband was teasing me by asking me if I wanted a drag and blah blah blah, but I said no and got on with it. So I noticed the cravings aren't so bad as they were yesterday, which is a releaf, but I'm eating like a piggy. Oh well we'll see how tomorrow goes, probably fine.
Walter has the day off today so he went to headstart for a "Breakfast with Daddy" He called me a little bit ago and said only 2 dads showed up...how sad. He is volunteering for the rest of the day though, Noel apparently likes him there, lol.
Well back to knitting I go before the baby wakes up.

5

[Sunday
October 16th, 2005
2:12pm
]
[ mood | determined ]

I am deciding to quit smoking. I've smoked for about 8 years and I really do think it's time to stop. So far so good today. I Got up at 6 and I haven't had a ciggarette since. I am craving them at certain points throughout the day though. Like I was printing labels for my eBay stuff and I wanted one, then I put the baby down for a nap and usually I have one right there and then so I craved it then. I am worried about Wally coming home this afternoon though. I told him I wanted him not to smoke in the house or the car, so I would have an easier time, not sure if he is going to remember. I wonder how long it will take for the cravings to go away though, knowing me it will take forever, but I had heard something about three days, hmmmmm. So as much as I am craving my bitch stick Misty Menthol Light 120's I won't have one. No wonder today is going by so slowly...

4

[Monday
October 10th, 2005
7:49pm
]
I want to download more music but I can't think of any songs right now....come on give me some suggestions.....I like almost anything.
2

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]